falling leaves

hari ini, gak begitu penting menurut gw, cuma tadi jam 1.30 gw ke kampus bwt ngumpulin tugas sosiologi. gak ada yg berubah, tetep sama, kosong, ada yg kurang, kurang apa gitu. Kosan gw udah sepi bgt. Jd kangen juga ama guyonan dan tawa anak2. belajar jd bt, padahal 2 hari lagi bakal ada tes lisan. gimana ini. Tadi malem gw abis nonton film judulnya my life without me. Filmnya sedih bgt, tentg org yg udah tau bakal mati tapi usaha bwt membahagiakan org2 disekitarnya. Beberapa hari yang lalu gw juga nonton film bagus "something the lord made". Ceritanya tentang operasi jantung pertama di dunia yg diangkat dr kisah nyata. Gile tuh film bagusnya bukan maen.

tiap hari selalu hal yang sama, makanan yg sama, org2 yg sama, pelajaran yg membosankan yang selalu sama, semuanya sama. Kayaknya kurang wah gitu. bt cuma bisa diem. tugas banyak. Kalo di kosan paling ngidupin komputer ato ngedengerin mp3. belajar juga cuma kadang2. gak tau deh. coral draw yg bru gw beli cuma ngerti baru dikit. cd game harry potter4 juga blm tamat. ada yg kurang. kurang sesuatu, sesuatu yg bisa ngebuat gw semangat lg. Sebenernya gw gak perlu benda/materi. Gw cuma butuh kata2 dukungan, support ato apa aja yg bisa ngebangun gw. Tapi kayaknya gak cuma semangat aja. gak taulah. ini curhat apa blog??? gak jelas gitu gunanya. ngubungin temen lama udah susah. yg gak dibaleslah smsnya, yg dikacanginlah, yg pelit smslah, yg gak ada pulsa, yg lupa nomor, bahkan yg udah gak ketahuan dimana rimbanya. Sebenernya mau bgt gw bilang: "teman, ada saat-saat dimana aku sangat membutuhkan kalian, tapi kalian tidak ada". Ada yg bilang yg ngebuat kita sedih itu bukan waktu sendirian, tapi waktu kita lagi ketawa seneng tapi gak ada yg bisa diajak ketawa. Gw kalo udh bt paling ke warnet. yah kyk sekarang ini. ngebuka fs, blog. FS seolah2 cuma wadah dari temen semu yg gak kelihatan. kadang jumlah temen sampe ratusan. sebenernya fs cuma alat bwt tetep keep in touch. cuma mandangin foto-foto yg bisu itu mungkin gw udah sedikit seneng.

Lonely....

Sepi, sangat sepi, begitulah keadaan Jatinangor sekarang, coz lg minggu liburan, tapi cuma ada satu fakultas bodoh yg belum libur juga, yup FISIP!!! sepanjang lorong kosan gw yg biasanya ramepun, kini sepi bagaikan kuburan, yah sebenernya gw juga bentar lg tgl 28 mau blik ke Bandar Lampung, but masi ada 1 uas yg belom kelar, pip yg menyebalkan!!! sepi2, gw mau teriak keras2 biar rame!!!!

now is empty

The town is quiet during the night like a deep sea

i continue to walk down the road alone

relying on a voice far away

i search for that faint

harmonious light
if i find u, i won't lose u a second time

no matter the pain in my chest, i'll always be near

always...always...

UAS STATISTIK YANG KELAM....

Sebelum gw mulai menulis marilah kita bersama-sama mengheningkan cipta seraya berdoa kepada Allah SWT atas bencana yang terjadi hari ini. Semoga semua mahasiswa HI UNPAD yg mengikuti ujian Statistik hari ini diberikan ketabahan dan kekuatan, amin.

cit2 kicau suara burung membangunkanku dari tidur (kesannya kamuflase banget gak mungkinlah jatinangor yg full with polution bakalan ada burung berkicau pagi2???). Ok kita lewatin bagian ini....

Bangun tidur gw langsung ngaca, tau2 ada iler nyangkut kan?? trus as usual ke kamar mandi dan gak perlu gw jelasin kan apa yg gw lakukan?? setelah mandi dll. Gw belajar statistik bentar lagi walaupun semalam udah jor-joran belajar tuh pelajaran yang dipegang ama dosen mafia(pake kalung emas seh). Bismillah akhirnya gw melangkahkan kaki ke FISIP nan BUTUT...

Tepatnya di ruang 205 gedung B semuaperistiwa na'as ini terjadi. Pelajaran statistik yang biasanya gak begitu rame tiba2 dipenuhi dengan wajah2 baru(seenernya wajah lama) dan udah seerti antrian foormulir SPMB wew, OMG dah. Gw masuk ke ruanganitu dan mulai mengeluarkan alat tulis. Tak lama soal2 pun dibagikan...

Begitu liat soal2nya buset dah sudah terbayang hal2 buruk di mata gw, tapi dengan ikhlas dan ridho gw tetep kerjain soal2 nyebelin itu. di tengah2 soal yang harus menghitung gw keuarin deh nalat canggih untuk menghitung, yup, kalkulator, tapi.. Alamak, wadaw, mati gw!!! kenapa nih kalkulator, dalam seejap surga berubah menjadi neraka, bumi dan langit gonjang-ganjing, blalablala..... sekujur tubuh langsung keringat dingin gak karuan. coba cari bantua ke luar pun nihil. Bug, gw terdampar dan termenung; Tuhan marahkah kau padaku....?? inikah akhir Ujianku???? tapi untung Fajar yang baik hati, tidak sombong dan rajin menabung, blablabla.. meminjamkan kalkulatornya ke w. jadi kami pinjam2 kalkulator selaa ujian. akhirnya setelah kutak katik sana sini, berdoa, dan gara-gara kepintaran gw juga hehe akhirnya kalkulator itu gwtaklukan, betul lagi deh, akhirnyabisa mengerjakan soal dengan tenang....

Tapi, ternyata ada 2 soal yang tertolong nyawanya, mungkin sudah kehendak dari yang di atas. Untunglah sinar terang datang, satu soal hidup kembali dari mati suri berkat pertolongan orang Majalengka, si Hans. Hahaha akhirnyacuma1soal yg gak kejawab. Alhamdulillah deh....

just the girl

She's cold and she's cruel

But she knows what she's doin'

She pushed me in the pool

At our last school reunion

She laughs at my dreams

But I dream about her laughter

Strange as it seems

She's the one I'm after

Cause she's bittersweet

She knocks me off of my feet

And I cant help myself, I don't want anyone else

She's a mystery

She's too much for me

But I keep coming back for more

She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

She can't keep a secret

For more than an hour

She runs on one-hundred proof attitude power

And the more she ignores me

The more I adore her

What can I do?

I'd do anything for her

Cause she's bittersweet

She knocks me off of my feet

And I cant help myself, I don't want anyone else

She's a mystery

She's too much for me

But I keep comin' back for more

She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

And when she sees it's me

On her caller I.D.

She won't pick up the phone

She'd rather be alone

But I can't give up just yet

Cause every word she's ever said

Still ringin' in my head

Still ringin' in my head

She's cold and she's cruel

But she knows what she's doin'

Knows just what to say

So my whole day is ruined

Cause she's bittersweet

She knocks me off of my feet

And I cant help myself, I don't want anyone else

She's a mystery

She's too much for me

But I keep comin' back for more

Oh, I keep comin' back for more

She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

Just the girl I'm lookin' forI'm looking for

Just the girl I'm looking for

just the girl

She's cold and she's cruel

But she knows what she's doin'

She pushed me in the pool

At our last school reunion

She laughs at my dreams

But I dream about her laughter

Strange as it seems

She's the one I'm after

Cause she's bittersweet

She knocks me off of my feet

And I cant help myself, I don't want anyone else

She's a mystery

She's too much for me

But I keep coming back for more

She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

She can't keep a secret

For more than an hour

She runs on one-hundred proof attitude power

And the more she ignores me

The more I adore her

What can I do?

I'd do anything for her

Cause she's bittersweet

She knocks me off of my feet

And I cant help myself, I don't want anyone else

She's a mystery

She's too much for me

But I keep comin' back for more

She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

And when she sees it's me

On her caller I.D.

She won't pick up the phone

She'd rather be alone

But I can't give up just yet

Cause every word she's ever said

Still ringin' in my head

Still ringin' in my head

She's cold and she's cruel

But she knows what she's doin'

Knows just what to say

So my whole day is ruined

Cause she's bittersweet

She knocks me off of my feet

And I cant help myself, I don't want anyone else

She's a mystery

She's too much for me

But I keep comin' back for more

Oh, I keep comin' back for more

She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

Just the girl I'm lookin' forI'm looking for

Just the girl I'm looking for

uas mau kelar neh!!!

bentar lagi uas kelar. tinggal statistik, filsafat ilmu, ama pengantar ilmu politik. fiuh, horeee!!! nilai b. inggri gw dpt A alhamdulillah, tp nilai yg laen blm tau mudah2an bagus juga, amin. ng... mau ngomongin apa yah?? gw sibuk dan bingung sekarang ngebagiwaktu bwt belajar spmb ama materi kuliah. tapi mudah2an aja bia diatur. gw berharap banget tahun ini gw bisa masuk ke fakultas yg udah gw harap2in bgt dr dolo. amin. doakan saya yah fren!!

Cloudy Birthday

today is my birthday, but it's so cloudy. Only few of my friends remember it. okay, i don't wanna talk about it. Yesterday was much of sad. a friend break her promise, i'm not her toy!!!! i really appreciate people who hold his promise, bu for people that break his promise, there would be no place for them in my heart. Today i'm 18 years old. Still have a lot of dreams. i want to make my dreams come true this year. Girl friend, i don't need it for now. i have to concentrate with my study. something is missing in my heart. like a piece of paper that lost from its book. but, what it is? what it is? arrogant people make me sick!! i hate them!!!!!!! a lot of style for thir face, just like a doll!! need to be taken care every side! suck!!!! colored hair such a fool. i don't mean anything, i just wanna express my feeling!! don't they know that color make cancer???? everything that we do need our consideration. don't just follow the trend without thinking!!!!!!!! maybe you think i am talking too much, but.... but..... what is it!!!!! sorry for everybody that gets hurt with my words.

UAS UAS dan UAS

Masih UAS, ini hari ketiga. Setelah Agama Islam dan B.Indonesia, hari ini sosiologi. UASnya aneh bgt take home hahahaha!!! asyik!!!! besok b.inggris. minggu pertma insyaAllah masih safe2 aja. ada yg gak nepatin janji hari ini. sedih2 bgt........ gw dimaenin aja kayaknya.....

Akhir2 ini lagu Bunganya bondan, demi waktu ungu, ama tolong aku the rain lagi nge-hitz2nya di kos2an jatinangor. Sibuk2, bener2 minggu sibuk. mana mau ngapal bwt spmb. mau melancarkan pembalasan dendam uupsss. gak deng... Belajar, berdoa, berusaha, sisanya serahin pada yg diatas....

Lagi sibuk nyari soal2 dr internet bwt spmb. coba aja dari sma dulu sering nyari soal gini di warnet, ckckckck. menyedihkan....

Tolong Aku

Tolong aku sahabatku

Dengarkan jerit hatiku

Tentang dia tentang dia

Masih selalu tentang dia

Ajak aku bersamamu

Kemanapun engkau mau

Tenangkan aku tenangkan aku

sabarlah tenangkan aku

dia pernah membuatku merasa sempurna

hingga aku pun menjanjikan selamanya

Namun ternyata mimpi yang dia punyaberbeda berbeda..

Aku takkan bisahidup tanpa dia

dia yang membuataku bahagia

Tolong aku untukmelupakan dia

sungguh hanya itu

yang aku minta

Idul adha, tugas, uas ,dan ketupat

4 hal yang benar2 berdekatan saat ini dgn gw adalah idul adha, uas, tugas, dan ketupat.

1)Idul adha
Besok gw bakal ngerayain lebaran haji/hari raya kurban/idul adha. bener2 deh lebaran idul adha kali ini gw mesti di jatinangor. Karena demi menuntut ilmu. jadi lebaran ini gw cuma bareng temen2 aja. hiks2, sedih juga seh... yah mau pinter memang susah

2)tugas
Secara spesifik tugas ini adalah tugas pip(pengantar ilmu pelet). Dosen psyho yg gak berperasaan ngasih gw tugas ini. bener2 udah 2 hari dikerjain gak kelar2, insyaAllah malem ini kelar. mana gw blom bwt daptar pustakanya lagi.

3) UAS
ini bakal dimulai pada tanggal 11 januari besok dan berakhir tanggal 26. bener2 idup matinya disini nih. doakan saya yah!!! serbu!!!!

4)ketupat
kenapa? karena besok bakal sholat id dan gw gak tau mesti makan ketupat dimana? seandainya masih di rumah.... pulangkan saya!!!! seseorang kirimkan saya ketupat!!! huhuhu.

udah ah BT, emang jtnenger ngebetein.